I try so hard to pretend I’m okay 
. I try so hard it exhausts me ; I have no energy, I barely want to eat, and all I want to do is sleep 
. But then someone looks at me and expects me to be okay, and I have to pretend to be happy again. I just want to break down and cry . I just want to get all these feelings out of me. But by the time I finally have a moment alone to fade away, it’s like the feelings have already been bottled up so much that they just don’t want to come out. So I just lay there… wishing I could fall asleep so I could wake up refreshed, but my mind won’t shut off ; I’m not thinking, but I’m not silent either. It’s strange to always be someone people see as happy and calm when inside I just feel a deep sadness that I wish someone could see; I wish he would hug me and tell me everything would be alright
. I try so hard it exhausts me ; I have no energy, I barely want to eat, and all I want to do is sleep . But then someone looks at me and expects me to be okay, and I have to pretend to be happy again. I just want to break down and cry . I just want to get all these feelings out of me. But by the time I finally have a moment alone to fade away, it’s like the feelings have already been bottled up so much that they just don’t want to come out. So I just lay there… wishing I could fall asleep so I could wake up refreshed, but my mind won’t shut off ; I’m not thinking, but I’m not silent either. It’s strange to always be someone people see as happy and calm when inside I just feel a deep sadness that I wish someone could see; I wish he would hug me and tell me everything would be alright I will not be responding to messages on Facebook. To ensure I receive your messages, please contact me only through my new Telegram account using the link above.
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